being mixed up

Why I became this, which I thought about something that I shouldn't think. I thought I should got a girlfriend, I though I wanted to leave school, I thought that it was a wrong way to study......
Tonight, I have thought over for a so long time, even though my homework hasn't been finished. I will change myself tomorrow in order that I can be the top of my class. you know, you have to study or only study if live in China, so do I.
ok, now over here. I have to go on doing my homework.